It has been hard to write the last couple of weeks. This year has not started off with the bang I was hoping for – first Covid for me and then an unexpected Cancer diagnosis for my dad.
I have so many feelings that I want to write about, but I don’t even know where to start. And I know this is what happens with you as well. Unexpected (and even expected) things happen in your life. Then it just feels like life is piling on you, which leaves us all feeling a little overwhelmed (is this an oxymoron?).
My thoughts started with:
- How am I going to run/grow my business?
- Will my Covid turn into a hospitalization (it didn’t)?
- How can I deal with my emotion about my dad?
- What will happen to my family after he is gone?
- And the continued spiraling thoughts of worst-case scenarios running rampant in my head.
I slowly transformed my thinking into this:
- I will do the best I can with my business.
- I have time with my dad, and I will enjoy and honor him every minute.
- Helping my clients is a beautiful way to keep my feelings focused on others.
- I am blessed with the BEST family and friends, and I am leaning into them to help me get through this experience.
Not all my thoughts are resolved, but not everything has to happen at once.
It is easy to stay overwhelmed, and it is entirely understandable given the collective experience we are all going through. But you do have agency in how you handle your life events. You can get through the tough times by being honest with yourself and your tribe about what you need.
I know the time ahead will not be easy. My life will be messy for a while. I will be messy for a while. But I also know how lucky I am to feel such profound love.
This, I believe, is the price of admission for being human.